"is it my fault or ur fault?"

whose fault is it? Am i expecting too much or what..?

...i don't know...

lost in the midst of all actions

Wah..long time never update my blog.hahahax..!!! hmm, guess also no one reading it bah? hahax..had been mapling and studying for my upcoming common test.. ^.^

mus really study hard le..hai, my english is dropping tremendously..better find some ways to push it and right nw maybe exercises may help a bit..? although it seems late, but better than doing nothing and see it dropping? other subs are also deteriorating liao. hai..wtf am i doing? only 1 word to describe. Complacent. hai..mus get rid of this poor attitude and focus, work hard and score for my common test!!! WO YAO NI YI! I WANNA BE NO.1!!! JIA YOU!!!

as for dear leh..don't be disheartened k? well, everytime mr sum told me to teach u amaths. remind me repeatedly. but i don't really see the need to do so. u know why? i know u know everything already. every single things except for some minor things like the way to see things? yup..actually u almost know everything and jus need so touch up. * i know i said it many many times* HEHE.. well, i knw exercises help..but try to control lor..if u think u stable with it..then ok leave it..get a break k? doing too much maths can make u go mad de..trust me. i knw u dislike losing to THAt particular gal. i know inside it feels very fuck..! i know how it feels coz i felt that before. well, put tat aside. whack her in common test.

jia you jia you..cannot because u lose to her this sub..u focus so much on this sub and neglect the rest mah right? so others also mus study well well..win almost every sub. the feeling more song..=x

i guess if u read this.u should had enough of my nag bah. hahahax..ok ok i stop le wor.. jia you k? have fun together after common test! muacckX love you!

Hmm..todae seems a rather bad day? during nite time. hai..i don't knw wazz wrong with my sis. in my mind were question marks everywhere and don't seemed quite understand wazz is happening.

can't it be something simple and sweet but why does it always turn to be complicated and torturing? bOoO..it sux - hope everything is going on smoothly with her.

i guess wat i said really hurts u..? make u feel stupid. i'm sorry..but my words don't really mean that. i was jus shocked that u get such a mark. i thought u knew everything and i knew u can do it..but i don't knw wat happen.

u say it's calculation..well i guess u need to jia you k? losing marks at calculation is certainly not worth it. i know u knw every single things except for the chap 5 graphs. lax cool down..next time don't keep rushing through. don't because of that dumb teacher change ur seating while u are innocent and u anyhow do it. put it aside..why not settle it only after ur test..? haix..i really don't know..i guess i'm very very worried over ur studies bah. i really really hope u can do well..push all ur grades to Bs and As. u have the ability to do that..u really have..u ought to believe in urself. you know everything but u jus need some touch up. i know u did quite well in some of the tests recently..and i'm very glad for you. u need to jia you in ur upcomin common test k? i'm not tryin to stress u or wat. i only really wish for u to do well in ur studies. this way, u will be more happy and i will be happy isn'it?

however, wat i say..is up to you. my advices would'nt do any help. right now, u don't have to win anyone..but to win urself first. only then will u do excel in ur class. Jiayou dear..i'm sorry

woh..it's been a long time since i update my blog..? yeah..busy playing maple. hahahax..well, always update blog becoz i'm very unhappy..guess this is the motive i wrote again?

i don't knw what went wrong recently..and my academic results are falling..my chem, ss and chi. haix..i knw how to do it or i simply don't? maybe i'm jus tryin to act smart. feelin extremely upset over my results. right now i'm questionin myself..am i playin too much and nt concentrating? What went wrong? dating too much neglectin studies? I don't knw. the doubt cause me to keep quiet for almost all the recess..thinkin over and over again. Why did'nt i get it right? I studied..maybe nt hard enough? nor smart? There's seems no answer to my doubt.

Why? Why? Why? my way of life seems to came to halt. i was going smoothly during my first semt..but wat happen to my attitude towards my second semt? I wanna top the class..i wanna take the scholarship..my MAIN target this year. But everything seems so far away. i'm gettin further each day. My confidence is deteriorating at the same time. Gradually, i start to lost interest in studies.

Pls..I wan back my confidence. I wan back everything i had last semt. I really need it..for me to push on. I don't wanna disappoint my mum, my family and anyone concern. Nowadays, things are so complicated to me. my mind swirling... i'm simply very TROUBLED. studies..basketball..everythinig. the coach is jus practisin favouritism to the chinese and neglect bout us. i totally see no quality in those chinese. why mus u always use the export? we are singaporeans and u should use us to deliver NOT THE CHINESE! they are freakin slack and yet u don't even knw a single shit. together with my friends..we had sweat blood through 2 years of C boys training..instead of gellin us..u split us apart by puttin in a chinese freak. hai..i don't understand.

common test is coming. i really have to score..i need to show my mum waat i can do and wat i promise her to do. hai..lastly, dear..sorry. i don't knw why i have to say it. but i feel i really owe u one.

rocky life-